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I resigned my job after Simon left.The last day of working Jimmys, I earned AUD100 tips. I earned customer like me for my last day. I left jimmy with my good impressions and reputations.

I wasn’t very happy to myself to continue jimmys. It was not problem with the Jimmys staff. It was me. Since my dad came to Brisbane, I didn’t get to spend time with him in 13 days. I felt so sorry for him.

I felt so stress when my dad came here. I have to take care so many things until I am going to be very crazy. My dad didn’t know that how hard I have been striving for my life. My dad keep nagging of me so many things. When my dad start nagging on me and he repeated the same things to my head. I just got too much pressures on my head. End up, I have a few fights with him. I told that is nothign I can do about it. i have job offer in Aus and I have given all the visa info to my employers to get my visa. My dad still keep rushing me all the things.

I was so stress. I tried to tell my dad to stop nagging me. He didn’t understand how I feel. All his thinking is Job and money.. He had never thought that spending a good relax time with me.

That was once I went to church, I talked to god. Why my dad over nagged me. I am stress from my manager of my job. I knew 1 day he is going to fire me when I asked for leave to spend time with my dad. I am stress from my working visa. I am sad that I felt so sorry to my dad. He came all the way 10 hours to Brisbane and doing nothing. It was wasting time. I didn;t get a break and the time is too short for me to spend.I asked god, what shoudl i do? Why my dad keep putting a lot of pressures on me inapporiate way? God!! Can you please finish my life? Please end my life. I can;t stand like this anymore. I am not being myself at all.

I was crying in the church. Til now, my dad still dun understand. All the conversations are all about the jobs and money. I wanted to bring him to Gold coast. He didn’t really want it, he still want me to find out other ways to get working visa here. During the lunch, I tried to forget all the jobs. I wanted to talk other than work. But, he just kept quiet. I felt the love turning into hate. Why he treat me like this?

When I went back home, I asked Tessa " Do you have drugs that I can have? Do you have anyways can teach me to kill myself.?" Then I told her all the situation. Tessa was there for me.

I was so tire. i didn’t get to rest after graduation. I have to earn my own money to pay my injury treatments. My dad keep repeating the same thing to me : " Have you hear from school, jobs and anything? You should do it soon.You should go and do pilates." All the mentioned is money and jobs. I felt so dead.

I was so frustrated. I came to Brisbane. I started do my dance from 7 am until 5pm. I have injuries, I still dance. I wasn’t allow to have relationship til now. I have already done it. I send all the application to save my life here. I wasn’t allow to go out after 12am when I was young. I saved so many money and have been through many hard times. I have been obey him and tell everyone I love my dad. I cooked for him, he said still not good enough. I dun know why he is still unsatisfy me.

When my dad can understand? When he stop pressures on me? 

Everybody said working in Jimmys is very suck because the staff treating people not good. I was always stressed in working there because of money, customer’s need, and the supervisors are crazy sometimes.

1 day, I met an English man, Simon is a traveller to Brisbane. He is a police officer in England. He is travelling around Australia and Asia. He speak with his English slang. He is cute and good looking. He asked me where I come from. Then I answered him and he mentioned his gf is half borneo and half english. He told me a lot of stuff about his gf. I can imagine that his gf is beautiful. He is so loving his gf.

When I started working, he said " hehe… you are going to get trouble working with me at the back."  LOL.. I said " ok, Let’s work!!"  When I worked with him, I felt my stress gone. I felt very fun and full of smile. He tricked me that I forgot the cuttery and he made me so embarass in front of the customers.

Simon :" Candy.."

Candy: "Yes, What?"

Simon : "You forget the cutteries."

Candy: "OH O."

Simon: " You still don’t want to take out the cutteries."

I just quickly took out and placed the cutteries to the customer. It was funny and embarass. I started have fun with him. Carmen said she gave massage to him. Somehow, I gave 1 massage to him. He felt so hurt and his face is so funny but he felt relax and good after a while. He said I gave a good massage for him. He gave me a lot of hugs and always called me "Darling " and "Beautiful". I wasn’t very used to it.

When I walked to jimmys is just like walking in the dark, Simon is like my stars who shine on me . I hoped I can work with him all the time. When I was so tire after having IELTS test, I was so down, my energy level was low. Simon concerned about me. He asked me to go home and rest. The next day, he asked Anna about me. Anna told me that he cares of me. I felt happy I have a such a good friend.

Last couple of weeks on Monday, I worked together with him at the back. When I passed by him, he will send me a kiss to me. Both os us are like a teamwork. We don’t care the tables session. We share the tables and tips together. I did have a lot of fun with him.

Then coming on Friday, I was late to work, I was trappe in traffic jam. End up, my manager asked me to go home. I wasn’t very happy. Then I asked Carmen to help me giving my present for him. He liked my pointe shoe present for him. He told me that he liked it and it was beautiful. It was my pleasure for him that I work with him.

The last Sunday (20jan), it was my last day working with Simon. He hugged me so tide because we like each other so much. He has to leave Brisbane in a week and continue his travelling. I have to go my own life very soon. I appreaciate the time working with him on last day.While he was having break, I will always remember he sat at the bench in front of jimmys. He looked so gorgeouse to me especially his smile.   

On the evening, we have a staff party at the Superbowl chinese restaurant. ME and Simon sit beside each other and have dinner together. It was good. We drink together with all other staffs. A lot of laughters and happy from all the staffs. I didn’t expect Simon coming to hold my hand, kiss me or date me. I just want to spend more time and know more people in Brisbane. Sara who is one of the supervisor, she said to Simon " you have been through so many girls, Can you pick of the girls for a date tonite.?"

After dinner, we went to Karook. Simon hold my hand tide and he kissed my lip. So many girls want to go after him and he choosed me to date with him. He said " Candy, you are so beautiful in physical and personality." I told him, your personality attracts me a lot. Too bad, we have to separate very soon. I did enjoy a lot of times with you. We hug tide and hold my hand the tide together.Life is so short, Why not enjoy the time together who you like.

Simon said " It is hard to give up on you. I hope I can stay here longer with you. Candy, you will find a good man with you in future."

I told him, I date 1 nite with him which is very worth it for me to know him and tell him that I like him. I will not regret to walk this moment with Simon. All my prayers and wishes are always with him.

My last meeting him was at jimmys. He worked there last day. He gave me his last hugged and he gave me his funny face. I knew that I am not going to meet up with him anymore. I went to church and lighted up a candle for him and pray for him. I wish that he is a very good police officer in future. Good luck!! Simon.

He sent me a last email. He said " Candy, It was nice meeting you. You are a lovely person. Just be true to yourself."

In my heart said : "Thanks!! Simon."