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Everybody knows that dancing is my entire life. I am a single dancer. I always never leave the studio and stage all the time. To become a real professional dancer, I am still don’t know whether I can get to there. If I can’t be a dancer, I can use whatever professional skills to help many people who has trouble in physical.

Last August, I have met a man called Leon who is Malaysian chinese and Australian. I met him through my space. I  was so intrested to know him because something is very speacial to me. We met each other and he brought me to Mt Cootha. We went to watch movie and dinner. After few days, we went out at nite. Both of us have shown the body language to each other about love. I felt so natural and this feeling is just from my body chemistry. I accepted him to become my bf. Both of us really love each other and care each other. I always give my best for my love. The third day, he brought me home to meet the parents. His parents are so exicited.

That was 1 nite dinner, he suggested to have dinner with his parents. His mother is Malaysian Chinese and his father is Australian. I really have a good time with them. His mother is a lovely woman and caring. Me and Leon are so love each other. We tried to spend time together. Both of us are alwasy busy. when I have hard time, he supported me. When I have injured my knee, he gave me a present to cheer me up.

I have been not dancing a month. Til the day he has a job promotion, he has new job. the whole situation has changed. He hardly spend time with me. He still has Uni to do his studies and work as a bartender in Jo Jo restaurant.

The last day I met him, he looked so different to me. After meeting the last day, I felt something is not right come to me. I started worried about this relationship. But, I think in the positive way.

Yesterday, Leon rang me and asked for ending relationship because he doesn’t has time with me. He is very busy with his uni. He said it is not fair to me because not spending time with me. It will get worst.  I don’t blame him for this. Everybody needs career. In the end, I accepted the situation. I feel good but I have to end this. My chemistry of love is drained in my body. I feel pain and sad. But, I tell myself to be strong and move forward. I really appreaciate what he gave me in 2 months. Now, I am as his friend, I am proud of him because he is searching his real life. I have learnt a lot from him. I am really thank to him for being honest and respect to me. In this sitaution, It is part of my growing life.

my blessing and praying are always with Leon. I hope he will get what he wants. I hope I can meet him in the future as like a friend. I will continue my single journey life to create my own life.

Injury is part of the sport life. As a dancer, I can’t run away from injuries. I have injured my ankle and toe. Not long ago, I twisted my knee from comtemporary class. It is very annoying I injured.

How did I injure my knee?

I was excited and overconfident doing a jump called saute bas in parallel with travelling. It means jump and spin on the air. I was using a lot of force for travelling. In the end, I land on the floor and force of travelling is still going on. My left leg just twisted and I could feel the clicking..I tried to stand up but I can’t. My leturer had to pick me up to the side. Sam ran to the office to get Ice pack for me. At the corner, I tried to stretch my knee and I thought is going to be good.

In the nite, the sweeling of my knee exsit. I felt pain and clicking on my knee. End up, I was thinking that the new injury is coming to me again. I wasn’t very upset looking. I stayed my face in positive no matter what happen.

Next day I went to see physiotherapy, Jenny to look up. She found out that wasn’t seriouse. I didn’t sprained my cartilage or ligament. I just twisted and have bursitis in my knee. I was dissapointed I couldn’t do Gold Coast Eistedfod.

Last Thursday, I went to Leon’s house for dinner and watching "SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE" on TV. Leon’s mum is a lovely Malaysian lady, she cooked a good Malaysian curry that I love. She is very caring and charming. I appreaciate what she gave me.

While watching the TV, Leon suddenly gave me a butterfly ear ring and he wished my knee will get better soon. I accepted the present and I promised I will get better soon.

The next week, I couldn’t wait to dance. So, I went to do some dancing but no jumping. I started feel restless when I watched people dance all the time. After few days, I couldn’t do a single full plies. Mitchell and Rhys were so worried of me and asked " CANDY, SIT DOWN and NOT DANCING."  I went to see Jenny for my knee again. Unfortunately, the whole bursa liquid is cover my whole knee. My left knee was swallen like an elephant leg. There is another training Physiotherapy lady from Canada. Her name is Tiffinie. She explained what should I do for my knee. Overall, I have to keep icing the knee to reduce my swelling. I can’t dance, jump and run. It is so hard for me that I don’t have these activaties in my life. I am a person who always stay active. I am forcing myself need to be patiene for recovery.

My last choice, I have made an appoinment to a sport physician to check my knee up. I prayed for myself, I must recover as soon as possible. I have to come back my stage life.

Life is busy busy every second, minutes, hours and days. Til the end of the winter, I started to look for more social life to get rid of my stress from my works.

Not long, I have found a new person who is half Malaysian chinese and half Aussies. I found very intresting how is the mix people lifestyle in Australia. This new person is 25 years old young man mentioned a lot about his last trip to his mother’s hometown, Penang. It was funny what are the tourist thinking of Malaysia. After few weeks,  we decided to come out for a cup of tea to meet up. I was so nervourse to meet new people in my life. In the begining, I will be very shy. Many people adviced me to be careful to meet new friends. In this circumstance, I have a strong believe that I will meet a good people. I just gave myself a chance and not to think of negative side.

It was on Sunday evening, I met this man in a coffee shop at Racecourse. His name is Leon. Both of us have a good chat about Malaysian, Australian and other lifestlye. Both of us are so polite and repect each other. We have a great chat 2 hours in the coffee. Suddenly, I decide to ask him to bring me to Mt Coo-tha that I used to tell him I want to go this place before we met. Mt Coo-tha is a sight seeing the whole city of brisbane from the hill. It tooks about 20mins to get there.

It was very cold up on the hill in the nite. Lucky I brought my jacket with me. It was quiet and not many tourist there. When I was stepping on the hill and look at the whole brisbane city. All I can feel I want to collect the stars from the ground because there are beautiful lights like the stars. Me and Leon stood there for an hour to enjoy the the beutiful view. I didn’t bring my camera with me. The whole pic of the brisbane city lights is inside my memory until now.

From this moment, I am very happy that I met a person who can bring me to see such a gorgeouse view that I haven’t seen in my life. I started to know more about Leon. Both of us share our life to each other very easy. We spend a lot of times together and learn a lot of different culturals and personalities from each other. I will really appreaciate what Leon gave meas a friendship or whatever situation.