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I love to dance since when I was young. I can just dance whatever I like when i was free. I start doing my dancing in the age of 11. i was doing a ballet class with a group of small girls. I don’t feel embrass that i am old there because I love dancing. It is my natural passion. I put a lot of efforts in my dance but I didn’t have a lots of knowledge about what is ballet. I just dance it without a good technique and everything.
In Malaysia, so many girls want to go ballet for exercise and pretty. They don’t even know what is art. Many dancing school here always lack of knowledge to teach ballet to the girls. Girls come to ballet to keep long hair. Girls come to ballet is to get fit or thin. Some of them need discipline.
I started to do my full time dancing after college. I did in Ellie Zhou Ballet School. I went in to this class without technique, good body, flexibility, musicality, and brain is slow.
To my physical, i have a small upper body but big lower body like pear shape.I always have to lose my lower body. In ballet, everything has to be small, tall, lean body, Flexibility and long legs. i know I don’t have this type of body. But, I didn’t give up my dance.
Everybody’s leg is carried on more than 90 degrees. Legs are fully turn out 180 degrees.Double pirrouttes are the main thing. One hour pointe works. For me, i don’t have anything on the above.
Dancing is a lot of hard works. Today you start stretch, doesn’t mean you will get your flexibility immediately. My physical is so so tide, I always cried when i got pain.Stamina is so bad, not enough strenght for jumps. don’t have technique, you can’t find a good balance and right muscle to refine our body.I start keep on eye my food. After come back from the class, i straight away go to room and sleep. Next day, I can feel my whole body is so sore. But, I still continue to dance because is my natural passion.
It takes me many months and years to improve my dance. After a year, I have a lot of performance to do.It just make me busy and I do not have time to go out shopping or have a tea with my friends.
Everybody said, dancing is fun, don’t have to study. Well, many people don’t know what is dancer’s life. We can’t take many many rest. Everything is using our body. Once, overwork and overtire, we will get injuries very easily. Many dancer are also get sick very easy too because of underweight.
Coming for performance invitation, so many people are so discriminating us. If we don’t invite, they will ask " Why didn’t you invite me to watch your performance?" One of the people said, why I ask them to go. You are so weird. We don’t study dance. Why you ask us to go and watch. From that on, i don’t invite anyone to go and watch my performance. This is because nobody support our life. I would like tell everybody, you will dun have life without art. I love my job, i will continue to do until the end of my life.
I flied to Aussies to further my dance, it is my biggest job. The main thing is I want to be a professional dancer. i know majority of the companies would not accept me because I don’t have the good body. I always said companies are really unfair and blind. they are looking for the body and not their works. I have seen so many short dancers don’t have career. They did so much better than the people who have everything. I have to tell them, I can become a good dancer as I have my bad body type. It is very annoying that a person who has a skinny body but he can’t dance and get into the big school company.
I have been to a physiotherapy to do my body assessment. The physiotherapist found out my illitibial band is tide and all the tissues was builded tidely when i was growing. This is due of the bad dance training. I was so upset to hear that. Dance is a beautiful career. If you use the wrong way, it will build the mucle. that’s why people think that we are fat. In the end, I have to find someway to improve it. I worked hard and felt so pain to break my muscle tissues. i know it is getting there.
Last year, I was very happy I performed my school graduation. All my housemate came and watched. It was my first time, people gave me support not to give up my life.
Now, I am home. My teacher, Mr. Zhou adviced me. He believed in me so much. I won’t let him down. Not only him, my dad, classmates, and friend who support me.
If you have the heart, just do it. Something miracle will exist in our life. Am I right?
