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After the day of my birthday, time just flies very quickly. Everyone is leaving Allen St one by one. My heart is so hard to give up most of my friends.I was praying that time go slowly, I want to spend more time with Roz, Jackie, and others. It was just 2 months. Happiness is very short. Roz is a very loud person and lively. When I heard her voice, I will feel not alone. Roz is right, she said life is too short, very very short. Happiness and joy are also short too.

Before my graduation performance, I don’t know how to give a beautiful moment for Roz and Jackie. Suddenly, i have a wonderful idea. i used my really old old pair of pointe shoes which i have already used before. I cleaned it and make it nice. I wrote the message at the back of my shoes :

Dear Roz and Jackie,

It is a wonderful time we have been staying together. Our time together is too short. Thanks everything what you have taught me. I really appreciate what you have given me. You make me feel home in Brisbane now. I felt I am not alone in Aussies because of you. You make me smile and strong. i have nothing for you. This is what have. I give you this pointe shoes which is mean " I will dance with you, No matter where you go, I always walk with you"  I love you!!

Love is so important to everybody. I fall in love before but I didn’t work it out. I didn’t appreciate my love. Rosanna encouraged me to find a love. She said "Falling in love is natural and beautiful feeling." I told Aussies friend i don’t have choice. i want to have my career. I know how is the love feeling. It hurts once it is broken. Actually, I do in love but it is not the right time. Well, to me, i always regret that i didn’t accept someone. Now, I don’t expect anything. I am already happy that i have found a lot of good friends who love me. in Allen st, i can see a lot of girls and boy are attracting each other. most of the boy will sleep together with girl. The reason is they hold each other tide and treasure their loves. But, coming to my cultural, I can’t do this like what Aussies people did. When i stay in this house, I have already felt happiness with housemate who care and love me lot.

Roz and Jackie felt touching when i gave my valuable shoes to them. This is beacase they are my special friends. they came and support my graduate performance. Roz gave me a Australia map necklace. she said "When you see Aussie, you will know who make you grow." Yea, I can feel she is with me when I wear this necklace now. The last nite, I really spend my time with my friends before I left to Malaysia.

Coming to the last day, Michael sent me to Airport. Roz, Jackie, and Lis were at the airport waiting for me. They really looked like a flight attendant. Everybody was jealouse that I was served by three flight attendants. Actually they are just a student. To me, i can see that I walk with the  3 pretty air stewartess. Before I walked down to the flight gate, I was so hard to give up them. i really hugged them very tide with my tears out because i am not going to see them next year. 3 of them leaving to Darwin to work. That moment, Roz, Jackie, and Lis are my unforgottenable people. inside my heart, I want to say "I miss you, Roz, Jackie, Lis. I love you!!"    

Long Long ago, I just thought that I am not going to celabrate my 21st Birthday. 21 st B’day is a very big day for everyone. 21st is already being adult and say good bye to teenager. At this age, everybody should get a key. The Key means we can open the door and freedom from parents and home. It is the time to open ourself and see the world. It is very huge celabration in Australia.

Suprisingly, everybody celabrate my 21st in my dancing school and home. Before that, I gave myself a treat must wear a beautiful dress since i have been long time never wear a skirt or dress in Aussies. So, I went to get a blue dress. I wore it and put on make up and a blue flower on my hair. I don’t want to waste a chance in the begining of my adult.

Unfortunately, my birthday eve is so bad bad… I was sick from flu, cold, and cough. I didn’t have a single voice to talk. Ryen heard my voice and laugh " i hate your voice" . Rosanna said I should sing a birthday with a awlful voice tomolo. It was so funny. So I have to take a long long rest and make sure I am not going to sick on my Birthday.

The next day, I dressed up but I still don’t have a good voice. I was panic that everybody is laughing at me. When I just opened the door, Ahsly, father of Allen St, sang B’day song to me with rock n roll action. Joel also came to me and sing too. Later, father Ahsly gave me a birthday kiss on my cheek.

In school, everybody was so curious that why am dress up so good. Then, somebody was still remember that is my birthday. My school director, gave me a hug and kiss too and wish.. coming to the end of the ballet class, Annette, the pianist suddenly played birthday song for our curtsey. I was so suprised. During the class, Yasmin was fooling me that my pronouciation is so funny. She asked me to count 1 to 10. I said three is tree. I said eight is egg. LOL!! They are really fool me.

Musical Theater people are so buzy rehersing for their musical theater night. I watched their rehersal are so good while I was waiting comtemporary class. I was so enjoyed myself . Miss Evesen, school Director, had prepared a birthday cake for me and a huge birthday card from everybody. coming to a short break, the musical theater people and ballet people sang b’day song for me with the cake. I was happy with it.

Well, I was also busy that day. i have to do the afternoon school rehersal until 6p.m night. In my mind, i want to go home early because i want to have dinner with my housemates. By that time, i reached home at 7.30p.m. I walked into the house then to kitchen. I saw something decoration. WOW….I was suprised that Allen St people decorate the birthday for me. I was so touched and i never have this in my life. When I just opened my room, I saw a lot of pink balloons in my bedroom. Oh gosh, I was so embarrassed that my room was full of messed. They broke in to my room and put the pink balloons. Later I recieved a big special key from the Allen st people. Wow…. Besides, Jacqui has plucked some fresh yellow flowers from me. I heard Joel used his teeth to pluck the flowers at the roadside. It was so massive funny boy.

In the end, we all went out to a Thai cruise restaurant have dinner. They also bought a chocalate mud cake with the sparkles to there. The chef have treaten us another stifry veggeis for us. Joel was entertainted as a Gooffy boy there. We also chated a lot of funny stuff. I received a long Thailand knife actually is to cut my birthday cake and I acted as a little asian monster to kill everybody. Michael was the only one being a good dead body for me.

It was a beautiful night time. Rosanna and Jacqui put a lot of effort on my birthday. i was very very lucky that I have wonderful friends in Allen st. Now, I treat them as my Brisbane family. I will not forget this significance moment. Thanks! Ros, Jacquie, Jack, Jake, Joel, Michael, Brendon, Katie Striuk, Tahnee, Nick Ilton, Miss. Eversen, and others who gave the blessing to me. 

When I first time moved into the Allen St, the first person who really talked to me is Rosanna Brown. I thought she is an aboriginal but she is Philipine-Australian. She is very hyperactive lady, friendly, honest and smart. Rosanna loves food. She is very unhappy that Allen St not giving food enough to eat and the food is unhealthy too.. I can see that she is really homesick. She lives in Cairns, North Queensland. After I came back from school, I always spend a lot of chating with her. She is full of humours and knowledge girl. I have never seen a lady like Rosanna in Malaysia.

She came to Brisbane to take Flight Attandent course. WOW… Rosanna is amazing and hard-working. At night, she is doing her homeworks and preparing for her exams. She did very very good jobs in her education. In your eyes, she has full energetic and confidence in everything. Rosanna had shared her life experience and philipine culture to me. Her mom is Philipine and her dad is Australian. She had Half Asian culture and half Western Culture. I am very lucky that i have learnt a lot of Australian Culture from her.

Every night, we spend time at the lounge. We went out to movie and clubbing. Normally, I don’t like to go to night club or pub. In Australia, Clubbing or pub is usually young people hiding. I trust Rosanna that won’t bring me to wrong track. Well, she is really taking care of me. As long I won’t simply attach anybody. This is my real life experience to see the Australian lifestyle.

After Rosanna moved into Allen St not long ago, she introduced me another flight attendant student , Jacquie who is also living with us. She is beautiful blonde chick. A lot of guys always attract her smile and beautiful face. I like her eye’s shape which is so unik. I always make her laugh non-stop. She always think I am a mega funny girl. LOL… Jacquie is from Noosa. Noosa has a pretty beach where Jacquie would like to bring me. In the end, time is too short, I couldn’t make it to go to the Noosa with her because of busy and i have to fly back to Malaysia after the performance.

Rosanna and Jacqiue are wonderful people. They practise some practical works in Allen st home, i was there to be their demonstrator. I also do learn a lot of aeroplane stuff from them. one day, I wish I can be a flight attendant as them.They finally got a flight attendant job in Australia. Ros is going to Darwin and Jacquie is going to work in Sydney next year. By that time, i know that they are not going to be in Allen St, I feel our spending time together is too short…….      

" Hello, Candy.. Hopefully you feel yourself like your home. " First day, I was so quiet. Everybody was busy talking about themselves and waiting pizza to eat. After dinner, I just went into my room and sleep. I was shy and I really have no idea how to talk to Australian people. The next day, I met a lady, Rosanna who is very friendly. I thought she is an aboriginal. But, she is not. She is Philipine-Australian. After day by day, I started making friends and talked to them. Everybody have their own English accent and slang. Everybody asked about my culture and I also want to know their culture. It was fun talking to them. We are always watching Tv together at the lounge there. Every 6.00p.m, the cooker will say "Dinner is ready". Except Saturday, I have to cook for myself. And I always like to share my cook to everybody.

I have met a lot of people who come from different country and outside Brisbane. That was 1 night, Oliver who is Spanish from Chilli, south America. His hair is red-orange. He was talking to Rosanna secrectly. I was so curiouse about it. In the end, Rosanna  said " I am going to help Oliver to dye his hair into black". LOL!!!…. The reason Oliver wanted to dye his hair  that he is leaving to India for holidays. He doesn’t want to look like fully white people there. Then, Me and Oliver went out to get the chemical stuff. He was so funny and excited that how is he going to look like with black hair. The result of dying his was success. But, it just left the eyebrow didn’t match with the hair. LOL!!!! Next day, everybody was suprised that Oliver is different. Katie Striuk said " You are very hot!!" haha.. Oliver went to the saloon shop to colour his eyebrow to match his black hair. He looked much much better and natural his face.

Not long ago, I went out with the Allen St people to clubbing. In Aussies, all the young people go to the night club. Where as in Malaysia, All the youngster have their tea at the Mamak store (Indian Restaurant). Before we went into the club, Everybody bought alcohol and drink. In my culture, I just drank  cups of alcohols. We drank at the park and chat. In half an hour, we can see everybody was so drunk and funny. Rosanna have promised Oliver to be pissed because she had sign a contract to Oliver. LOL!!! Well, It was good. She was so control herself not too drunk.

Afterthat, we went to the pub and clubbing. Some people were so drunk and couldn’t get into the night club. In the end, me, Jess,Oliver, and Rosanna were dancing at the Exchanged clubbing. Oliver was so protecting me in the night club. He knew that I am still feeling very stranger in the clubbing.

Our last day with Oliver was at the Racecourse bar. It was pack of people in the pub, they were celabrating Melboure Cup. A lot of man was gambling the horse races. Everyone wants to know who won the Melboure Cup. Ladies dressed up so pretty with a special hats. It was last nite with Oliver. Allen St people were so happy living with Oliver’s smile.

Not only Oliver left Allen St, many people left towards the end of the year. I am glad that I still see some of them next year.

After a week, we had a Allen St family gathering dinner. Me, Rosanna, and Katrina were going to cook for people who are still in Allen St home.  I found this is to show we are so loving to each other. In our Asian Culture, food is love. We cook for you means we love you. It was a great dinner they have never had in Allen St. I hope they will feel very prosperity living this home. I told them " Guys, I am home. I have a home in Brisbane. I am not alone."  I can everyone was so so happy especially Jack who I have never seen him with a big big smile. After the dinner, All the boys were doing the cleaning.

I don’t have family, friends, and relatives in Australia. I was so homesick before I came to Allen St home. I always couldn’t wait to go home. I really wanted to give out my performance course in Australia. I have plenty of negatives thinking about Aussies.. Since I came to Allen St, I have brighten my day. People are always giving a lot loves and supports to me. Now, Allen St is my home. Allen st people are my family.

I have never do my Pas De deux before I did my full time course. My first pas De deux class, teacher had to arrange the partner. i was so scare to approach with the Aussies because i was shy. My teacher just grabbed my hand to a little boy. i know that i am short and tiny in Australia. The first partner i have is Bradly Inness. i was so shy to talk to him. I wanted to run away from him but i can’t is beacuse of the work. He talked me with a very cute face. He looks very funny and always want to make me smile. His voice really like an animate. In my heart, I was giggle when we are intraducing to each other. Braddy is not a ballet dancer. He is musical theater people. He is an amazing dancer. During the pas de deux class, we worked very hard together. He is very patience with me. Most of the time, I fall because he forgot to hold me. LOL.. He is very hilariouse boy in  the pas de deux class. That was once he came to our first year student’s comtemporary dance, i dance with him as a group. We were fully energy to do the dance together. this kind of feeling i have never have before.i hopei can have this feeling in my dance forever. i have never missed to watch Brad’s performance "All My Love" and the "Musical Theater night". A lot of part in the show, he caught my eyes. I still remember how he acted Drunk in "All My Love" and how he make his voice like a cartoon in " All Shook Up". i believe he can be a super star in future. I have a little regret that I didn’t spend  a lot of times with him. Luckily, I saw him before the graduation performance when i was on my way to the city. We sat at the park and chat for an hour. I really appreciate what he had advised me. Brad said " If you can walk, you can dance. If you can talk, you can sing. No matter how, dance for yourself." Before he left the school and ADPI people, he said it is hard to give up the school after the graduation. I also have a same situation as him that I am going to lose a great pas de deux partner. I would like to tell Brad, no matter how far we are, we are always best friend and dance partner.

It was my 1st time away from home to Brisbane to further my dance education. Before flying to there, i was exicited that i am free from my parent’s control. I thought that I can do whatever I want once i am away from home.. I came to Brisbane by myself. No friends, father came with me just for week and left, No relatives, and nothing..

In 10 months, i realiazed that I was un happy in Australia. i can’t accept the culture. i have so much trouble in my living. Aussies people always tend to say i can help.. In the end, they broke their promise.School mates were always missing for rehersal and we will cancel the rehersal class.. i had full of frustration to say " I want to leave aussies, i hate this place, i want to go home, i can’t wait" the worst thing in my mind is i want to jump into the river and just leave the world. I also being hate myself that i can’t be a dancer. i don’t have the body type for the ballerina and everything. i have cried out million million tears while i was hiding. There is no love and care for me. i always complained a lot of stuffs. I was extremely homesick.

In the spring day, i have been to a new home "Allen St" which is a student accomodation. i have met a lot of nice people there. i started changing my lifestyle to match with the aussies people. I have met a lady, ROSANNA who is Philipine Australian. I have shared a lot of things with her. she has full of care for me. We have dinner together and chat a lot. i also make a lot of friends with a lot of Australian friends. They are very welcome me to allen St home because i am the first Asian people talk to them. I started chat very crazy. i went to school, i am going to think that I am Aussies. So I can makes friends with everybody.

Allen St people taught me a lot of things about Aussies lifestyle. Most of them are very open minded and talk. I am the most innocent there. Sometimes I don’t get it what they talk. I asked the question, they laugh at me. I told them I can’t swim. They are also laughing at me. They encourage me to learn swimming because it is very dangerouse if don’t know how to swim.

They said i am very tiny and easy to make fun of me from all the aussies people. Sometimes, I am very crazy. people call me " little Aisan Monster".

Coming to  the end of the school term, Musical theater people start mixing with me very well. Sometimes, i felt very bad i still treat them not very good.  When I saw the musical theater nite, it was wonderful shows. i found the musical theater people are very relax and fun on stage. They really do their performance with their fully energetic. It makes me fall in love with them.I didn’t regret to know the musical theater 2nd year people and others from ADPI. 

Hello!! Thanks and coming to see my new blog. I just started this blog. Currently, i am sorry that my blog is very plain and nothing. Well, My title of my blog is "Journey of my life". I just came back from Brisbane for holiday. i just turned 21 last 22nd of Nov 2006. Now, I start being an aldult who has no money, still away from home to Aussies, how am i going to be a dancer, no relatives in Aussies, and blah blah..  The reason I create this blog which is my dairy about myself first  time away from home to another country by myself since i just started be aldult. i would like do this because i have a wonderful feeling moment that is so meaningful to me which i have never had in my life. Hopefully, this blog would not make you bore. i wish i will do my blog better.